i feel so bad for my dad. all he tries to do is love us (me and two sisters) with all his heart and all we can do is bash him for what he does that bugs us. he can get very annoying at times, but tonight i realize how stupid and selfish we sound for doing that.
we had nothing to eat for dinner tonight, and i was gonna have some frozen thing, but my dad overheard and decided he would take us all out to eat at a mexican restaurant. so we get ready and go and (skipping ahead to ordering food) when we get our food, my sister’s (savannah) nachos are burnt and dont taste very good. she quickly got irritated at everybody since her meal was ruined. i dont exactly know why, but my dad suggested to eat it with a fork. savannah gives him a mean look and sharply says “No”.
and also, savannah had plugged in some random christmas lights earlier, and turned them off when we were about to go, even after our mom told her to leave them on (not in a demanding way though). she turned them off anyways, and my dad playfully says “oh come on savannah, whyd you turn them off?!”. i understand our dads humor, but apparently my sister doesnt, and so she took it the wrong way, and started to yell at him to get over it and that theyre just lights.
when we got home, savannah had apparently tried to apologize to our dad, but he said it doesnt matter (which is what he does to make us feel bad). it didnt affect her in that way, so she started to ask what his problem was, and after a while, he said “i’m not perfect, savannah i know, so please stop reminding me!”.
when she told me about the discussion, i thought about how he is always getting nagged on about how hes so annoying and wont let us grow up, when on the other hand, he has loved us with all his heart all our lives, and continues to do so, and all we can do is point out all his flaws and what not.
it got me so upset after a while, i started crying about how we act towards him and how he must feel, and i am still crying over it. when we were young, we all used to hug him whenever he got home from work every single day. it makes me so incredibly sad to think about how he must feel now. i dont deserve a dad as great as him. none of my siblings do either. he is such a great person at heart, so full of love, only trying to show us how he feels about us as his kids, and all we do is make him feel bad about himself and what not. he tries to do so much for us, even though we have almost no money anymore cuz of the economy and such. i’m 17 years old, and even though he is still pretty strict as a parent and can annoy me with that, its just good to know he cares about us still. it kills me to think that he might die at any time with this, and i honestly dont think i’ll ever get over it when he does pass away..